This is from a post by #findingjoy
Hey - I just want you to know that you’re important. Maybe you had a really hard day. Maybe you feel alone. Maybe you are worried. Maybe you don’t know what to do next. Maybe it was just a day.
But in it all, no matter the day, you are truly valuable and wonderful.
Tonight before you sleep try to let go of the challenges and instead focus on the good. See the blessings, the love, the possibilities.
Breathe deeply, let go, and in it all know that you are enough.
-Rachel
From me-
I have been keeping myself distracted, working hard. There is so much to do here on the farm. Everything becomes my responsibility, and frankly there is "too much on my plate". The most pressing, and critical comes first.
To keep my head above the surface of a deep black pool. Working hard to do many things, only to be criticized and told I am totally wrong.
For instance, all of our honeybees died. I don't want to get any more, they create arguments and bad stuff between the Old Man Crap and me. He thinks that getting new bees is very important. Well...great! I just tell him that there are none available at this time, and maybe we can get a swarm to start with. Yes, I have been telling him so many lies. How else can I do it...I am the one to has to do everything! Frankly, there will be things left behind. We are getting older and this farm takes more than we have.
The puppy is constantly in my face, and I have to raise her right. She tires me out with her constant needs.
Too many critical things to do, too much weight on my shoulders, too much... To keep myself from falling of the deep end and drown, I need more self-care time.
Just keeping it real.
