I think that as we age, and find that we have become a Wise Woman,
and our Souls find peace and become more beautiful than we ever
have been in our many years of life. We have a much deeper understanding of
life...even when much of our exterior being has been transformed. A life
well lived does show that we have been through many good things, and
difficult things that we regret, grieve, and long for from our lives.
A Wise Woman has learned many lessons, and she is still searching for new
ideas, experiences, and lives a life of curious learning of new things. She understands
that that her life is full of possibilities to explore, adventures, people to meet...
This last 10 months of 2020 have been a difficult time, and I have learned how
quickly lives will be completely altered...into something that I never
believed would happen to me. Myself, had never thought that a huge pandemic
would affect the world. I believed that current medical knowledge would be able to easily
find a cure for this Covid-19 curse we are experiencing. That I would not have a
8 month long lock down at home, that does not appear to be changing anytime
in the future. That my life...as I knew it, would be changed forever. I still grieve for
all that is lost to me...the future I imagined is not there. My lifestyle is gone.
My mental health is difficult. I have not been myself for so long. I am overwhelmed
by the fight or flight response, not knowing what the future will bring. I faced the strong
belief that my home would be destroyed by forest wildfire. That my physical being was tested
from all the work that I pushed myself to accomplished...to exhaustion.
The loneliness and loss affecting my soul.
